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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ladyofshallot48 - posted 170 weeks ago (nudge them)
merlyn523 - posted 134 weeks ago (nudge them)
celierra - posted 131 weeks ago (nudge them)
polveroj - posted 123 weeks ago (nudge them)
yakitysmak - posted 94 weeks ago (nudge them)
boreas42 - posted 81 weeks ago (nudge them)
tanya_42 - posted 79 weeks ago (nudge them)
nimue416 - posted 9 weeks ago (nudge them)
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(taken from the "nudge a friend" page)
Gah! Two and a half years? Has it really been so long? Well, it's about time I updated this thing...but I'm going to keep this short, since we should go get some lunch and the laundry timer's ticking away in the meantime.
I'm glad to say dear Daniel and Zelihar (Zahariel! :p ) is around more now and hopefully will post without me having to click the "nudge them" button there... :p Daniel, Pax, Kris, and Rookie are all on more often now too. It makes us feel a lot better to see them around again... ^^
Wei've got too many things wei want to do as long-term goals...the major ones are probably opening an HDM essay/knowledge base site, a hurricane forecasting competition site (that also churns out weighted-average forecasts from participants' inputs), and learning to draw me and anthros. But then there're all these little things like maintaining our Neopets account and Wikipedia and our LJs, and it takes up some time too. Plus school. Wei've gotta learn how to just run through all these and manage our time, instead of continually flipping back and forth....
Yikes, and now wei've gotta run to lunch... >.< More later!
[edits 3:08-3:12 PM] fixed code |
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[Feb. 28th, 2004|08:20 pm] |
Wow, and it was right about my human too.
Username: celierra Total words: 2638
Masculine Points: 3642
Masculinity: 45%
Feminine Points: 4299
Femininity: 55% |
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| Light Fluffy Snow!! ^^ |
[Jan. 15th, 2004|03:16 pm] |
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He he... It's not like that heavy snow we got earlier, it's fluffy and light, and wei had an easy time shoveling it. Our neighbor let us borrow one of those machines that kick snow up and toss it into the air...it didn't help very much, since it sprayed the snow directly in front of us.
We measured it with a ruler:
By a wall, 6.25"
In a flat area (where wind blows it back up again), 4.75"
In between, 5.25" |
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| It's my cieday!! |
[Jan. 5th, 2004|07:04 pm] |
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*calms self*
A year ago, within the next two and a half hours (and after 7:46:51 PM), wei would have just discovered each other. It's so exciting!! I have a feeling it's about 9:30, but the creation time for the profile thingy has 7:46... But I think wei came back to the profile after giving it the first attempt, so maybe it's 9:30 after all.
Okibi gave us a cake! :) She also made up a word for it, "cieday". It's for "coming into existence day", pronounced "kie-day".
*watches the clock closely* |
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[Jan. 4th, 2004|10:27 pm] |
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Tomorrow...is a big day... A year...so daunting... I'm looking around, and suddenly there's so many dæmons "younger" than me.... Already, it's like "were we really like that when wei'd just found each other??"
Too bad I'm not getting any gifts, or a cake with a big "1" candle on it, or any of that fun stuff... *sigh* Still afraid to tell our parents, and they wouldn't give me anything anyway. They'd just look at me as some mental disorder instead of an entity...wouldn't that be great? They probably already think wei have some mental disorder since wei go on the internet so much *sigh*.
So many dæmons with their own LiveJournal now... Five, that wei know of, wei think. I was first, probably. Then:
my_pantalaimon
yakitysmak
rannock
tanek_988
...I wonder if what you guys think of a community, just for us dæmons! Comment please! :)
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Wei got caught up in a strange chat yesterday too...heh. ^^; Wei really surprised and embarrassed ourselves there. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2004|05:26 pm] |
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OMG!!!! <-- click.
And as proof, just in case, here's a snapshot (where we only fixed links if they broke when we paste it here):
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Yesterday, we found out from nix (while we were in the BTTS chat room) that this page was the #1 result for "sraffie" on Google. Wow. Now, what does that mean? Are we uber-sraffies? I'm not too sure if wei ever used the word "sraffie" here.... Oh, well its still great! :) |
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| Reflections on a Year |
[Dec. 31st, 2003|11:20 pm] |
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(Typed over two days)
Wow. So much has changed.
I will have been separate from my human for a year this coming January 5.
Should I be called a year old? I guess you could see it that way.
It feels like decades have passed, really.
( ... )
When I look back over my few posts this year, I don't recognize that it was me. I realize that wei've changed a lot, our outlook has changed a lot.... Everything has changed a lot. I don't know if it's because wei've really matured, or if it's just what's happened over this year....
But I think wei've learned a lot over the year.
At first, everything was all fun and happy. It was great, us finally finding friends in each other. Wei were friends that'd always understand what either of them was going through. It eased our worries about not being able to find anyone that'd wei'd be comfortable talking about everything with.
But wei started to worry about maybe being hypocritical with our view on organized religion, and much of religion in general.
I hate to admit this, but...our (my human's?) belief that I exist is really a sort of religion; I might be nothing more than a creation of my human.... It's painful to say, wei can't bear thinking about me not being really there...but it's a little less painful than before. Part of this year was learning to accept that I might not be "real", that there probably won't ever be proof....
Wei panicked at first - wei'd always been strictly logical about everything, about what wei did. Before, wei'd never "fell into the trap" of "foolishly" believing anything armed with only faith and no proof; of course, wei're not so arrogant anymore. I was slightly worried that wei would have to go back to the way it was, because wei're so afraid of being hypocritical. Wei were confused about why this felt so right, why this felt like it wasn't as potentially blinding as religions we rejected. How were wei ever going to be able to justify this, but still justify not believing in other religions. Wei knew it'd feel so much better to just believe in some sort of God watching over us, but wei wouldn't be able to live with ourselves if we just blindly adopted a religion. Wei were worried...even if we were only justifying it to ourselves. Wei'd always been hard on ourselves on the whole religion subject.
There's also a little thing that's always bothered us - wei really needed (and still need) someone who wei could really talk to. I guess wei were (and still are?) that desperate for company. To some people (like shrinks, perhaps), that probably would explain why I exist separately from my human - so wei can provide company for each other.
But I think wei learned that not all religion is potentially blinding/harmful/twisted for someone's gain. Some sorts of religion were okay.
So wei changed our position on this a little. Wei came up with the idea that believing in anything was okay, as long as it helped you and society, and harmed nothing, and it didn't interfere with trying to find the truth. Wei knew that if someone had proof I didn't exist, then wei'd have to accept that - though wei wouldn't do anything more than just accepting it ^_^; . I'd still be there for him.
I think that was a pretty good achievement.^^
But then I worried I might be harming my human, even if wei don't know it...and I still worry sometimes. But I don't think wei can do anything to get rid of the feeling, it's just natural for a dæmon to worry about the wellbeing of her human....
But also, wei began to think that wei wouldn't need others anymore, that having to have friends wasn't so important... Wei thought just having each other was enough.
It was just before and during CTY, where wei were isolated from BTTS and TRoH (except for Daniel (Zahariel's) who was coincidentally at the same camp at the same time). Wei slowly realized that wei're not going to be able to make it as just me and my human. It was too just lonely and cold, and wei felt shunned and alienated.
Wei needed to know that someone would want to get to know us, that wei were worth something to people, that wei could do something for people, and that people cared for us. I guess that's when wei realized how valuable friends are, more valuable than wei'd ever thought before. (It was probably because all the friends from when we were little all just rode on our coattails on projects and stuff...) Wei realized that wei can't live alone for the rest of our life, and that's how wei began to try to be friendlier to people and watch our own behavior more.
A while ago (two or three months?), wei realized that I really had settled. The first thing that wei worried about was...if wei got our form right. My red fox form feels close to being right, but wei aren't completely sure. It doesn't fit perfectly, but wei know that it's close.... The main thing, though. was that wei suddenly realized that there might be things about us that wei can't change anymore. Wei're getting more and more worried...faults that wei never knew about are emerging now, and wei're afraid wei won't be able to fix our faults... But, enough of that...
I think that's the summary of the year for me. Wow, my first year....very eventful, and stressful....
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Anyway...a Happy New Year to everybody. 40 minutes left of the old one. Let's try to have a great new one...! |
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| Onward, unstoppably.... |
[Dec. 13th, 2003|09:25 pm] |
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There are so few daemons out there.... I'm surprised that I have found so many. I wonder, how many people with daemons are out there, afraid to say anything, or just lurking, or not on the internet....
Perhaps there are hundreds. Okibi knows so many....
Perhaps it's a good thing I only know a few. All of them are such great people, and I feel like I really know them. If there were so many, I would never be able to get to know all of them personally, and there'd probably be lots of annoying people...
Of course, these days are already starting to end... HDM hit 3rd on the BBC's Big Read today, so that means that its popularity is going to go up even more. I think it's officially come out from Harry Potter's Christian-fundamentalist-shielding umbrella.
Lately, I haven't been able to get to know Meep/Pan, and Natilie/Perce'co from AIM as well as I'd want to, but I hope I can soon. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2003|12:48 am] |
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Yey, I'm not alone here! my_pantalaimon is another dæmon! Wow, there's just so many now... There's probably about ten of us wei know of now - only 6 billion and change more to go! :p
(12/4 8:10:31 PM - oops, fixed the link) |
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| Dreams |
[Oct. 15th, 2003|11:42 pm] |
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Two days ago, wei and Witch-girl talked about dreams - how precious they are, how many may be already too far gone to save. Wei realized that wei only had one real dream left - the dream of maybe being part of a loving family, sometime, off in the future somewhere. All of them were gone, now impossible, except for maybe that one. Wei'll try as hard as wei possibly can to earn and keep the love that one special girl has given us.
There are still other dreams - wei remembered yesterday about Sraffie Central and Tolerantarianism, and today the old .SIMDAT. They were grand ideas I didn't tell many people about. Sraffie Central is an idea I had about a database of sraffies and a site about the general sraffie web community. Tolerantarianism was my religious theory. .SIMDAT was partly composed of a web of small floating computers, each with its own little display, processor, and memory, each of which could link up with others into changeable shapes. There were also computerized reviews, integration with TV and movies, explanations, interesting facts, make your own worlds by changing one little event (which is where .SIMulationDATa came from), etc. etc.... But realistically, wei know that probably none of them will develop to shape the future like big exaggerated things wei thought might happen in our heads. Maybe sometime eventually wei might get one of them started, but chances aren't too good.
They don't matter as much as her, anyway. She's everything to us. |
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[Jul. 12th, 2003|04:26 pm] |
Sorry for not updating in sooo long....we still don't have much time, but wei wanted to put some things down before wei forget when this stuff happened. :P
On the 27th (I think), wei made up a new form for me...it's a white angel fox! It's really cute! :P Wei can pretend to make little cloud staircases or stepping stones that I can stand on. It's really fun...I love jumping around on little clouds and stuff. ^_^
Wei're in a depression slump right now...been two or three days, I guess. I hope wei get out of it soon.... But wei made another new form for me for today, just for resting and emotional healing and stuff...a angel anthro dove... When we need to get away for a while, he can lie down and pretend wei're dozing on a cloud or something... *blush* It's just for when wei really need to escape.
Bah, g2g.... |
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[May. 23rd, 2003|10:26 pm] |
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The internet is too good of a screen...
I mean, there's no way to tell if someone really believes they have a dæmon in real life or they're just role-playing. Well, you have to get to know a person. It's sometimes really strange when there's a new person who says they have a dæmon, but when wei're in our chat room and wei start talking, he actually role-plays his dæmon. And sometimes people assume that you're role-playing it, often...sometimes they don't believe it when wei say that I still exist outside of the computer.
It really gets annoying sometimes...
(OMG, I didn't realize that wei hadn't updated in so long...sowwry!) |
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[May. 16th, 2003|07:33 pm] |
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All right!!
I got my own lj!! *hugs it*
Thanks, Alex! *hugs her human*
This place even has little foxies!! *plays with the little fox emotion icons* They're so cute! ^_^
Heh...so, anyway...
My first entries into any journal are at http://celierra.blogspot.com , and I'm not typing them over again!! Go there to see! Go! Go, shoo! *growls*
Well...I'll be back when I have something more to post! See ya, then! *waves*
Oh, yeah. My human's journal is at aysz88. Go there too! |
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